Sunday, September 29, 2013

I am scared of October

Children's craft from dried plants and seeds


Huhuhu... I am scared of the coming month of October. It'll either make me or break me.

Dear Allah...
Please be gentle, for this life is difficult to handle
Every passing memories... I feel it deeply with worries
Will I have a chance, in this borrowed world of evanescence.

Dear Allah...
Please fill my heart with hope, so I could cope
My time is passing, thinking what am I missing
The gentleness, of wholesomeness.

Dear Allah...
Please have mercy, for I want to be happy
Please point that cupid's arrow, to appease my sorrow
I want to love and be loved
Again and stop right there... Amin.


Saturday, September 28, 2013

September Counting to December

Unique real plants for sales during Putrajaya Floria Exhibition 2013


Today I had an accident. My most beloved car, the only thing that I have, my bumblebee got hit from the back by an old van unintentionally during a massive jam. My spirit was down. So low I feel like crying. In fact tears are dropping while writing this.

It should be a happy day not a gloomy day. But my heart felt so heavy since a few days back. Heavier today after the accident.

Months without anything to write. I am guilty for abandoning the blog I so loved. The hiatus was essential for my struggling with life and unhappiness.

I have come to a breaking point in my life. A turning point actually. Everything has been reaped away from me. I don't know what else I should lose in this evanescence life in order for me to experience ultimate happiness. It's just too hard.

Please Allah, have mercy upon me.

A new hope has come. I am counting this month September to December. I am leaving it to fate. Where it shall lead me  this time? Seriously I have no idea.

HOPE FOR THE BEST IN DECEMBER. I WANT TO SMILE AGAIN IN DECEMBER.

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